ACCORDING TO THE THOMAS GOSPEL
38. Jesus said, "Often you have desired to hear these sayings that I am speaking to you, and you have no one else from whom to hear them. There will be days when you will seek me and you will not find me."
Often we are searching for the truth (desire to hear these sayings) but we can find no-one to enlighten us (no one from whom to hear them). Both the truth as the teacher of truth are sometimes hard to find even though we seek (you will seek and will not find). So now, when Jesus is speaking (that I am speaking), is a time for really listening.
41. Jesus said, "Whoever has something in hand will be given more, and whoever has nothing will be deprived of even the little they have."
If some understanding is there (has something in hand), more will come (will be given more). When not even some understanding is there (has nothing), will lose everything else - such as worldly happiness - also (the little they have).
51. His disciples said to him, "When will the rest for the dead take place, and when will the new world come?" He said to them, "What you are looking forward to has come, but you don't know it."
While we may look forward to a release from the suffering of the ego (rest for the dead) and the coming of enlightenment (a new world), both are always available. And with the coming of the spiritual teacher, it is also made available (has come). One needs but to see it (know it), accept it, to make it work its magic.
79. A woman in the crowd said to him, "Lucky are the womb that bore you and the breasts that fed you." He said to [her], "Lucky are those who have heard the word of the Father and have truly kept it. For there will be days when you will say, 'Lucky is the womb that has not conceived and the breasts that have not given milk.'"
Only to hear the truth (the word of the Father) and to stick to the truth (truly kept it) brings happiness (are lucky). It is more valuable even than giving birth to an enlightened being like Jesus (the womb that bore you), or to feed the baby Jesus (the breasts that fed you). Also because in the end (there will be days), one will truly understand (you will say) the self is only true source of happiness (lucky), the one who is unborn (from the womb that has not conceived) and self-sustaining (from breasts that have not given milk).