ACCORDING TO THE THOMAS GOSPEL
2. Jesus said, "Those who seek should not stop seeking until they find. When they find, they will be disturbed. When they are disturbed, they will marvel, and will reign over all. And after they have reigned they will rest."
When you seek you will find, so don't lose faith. When however you start to see the truth of the self (when they find), the only reality, then the ego often feels troubled (will be disturbed) by its own lack of existence. Where to hold on to ? Yet, once the realization deepens to that level where the ego becomes really thin (when they are disturbed), the fear about the lost identity is replaced by wonder (they will marvel) at ones true identity and you will be more and more identified with the self. That will give you influence over others, the ability to lead them (reign over all) to the same light, which is an essential part of spiritual progress, the 5th chakra phase. After ones role is fulfilled in this (after they have reigned), final rest dawns with enlightenment (they will rest).
59. Jesus said, "Look to the living one as long as you live, otherwise you might die and then try to see the living one, and you will be unable to see."
Focus on the self (the living one) throughout your life (as long as you live). Otherwise when dying (might die), you will not be sufficiently connected to the self to truly merge with it (will be unable to see). When dying, a major part of the illusion of the world is lifted because the sense organs disappear along with the physical body. For many souls it is the most auspicious time to seek the self (try to see the living one) and merge with it. However, those that are too much attached to their body and personality and not enough turned towards the self during their lifetime, will miss the opportunity and will again be caught in the game of birth and rebirth.
76. Jesus said, "The Father's kingdom is like a merchant who had a supply of merchandise and found a pearl. That merchant was prudent; he sold the merchandise and bought the single pearl for himself. So also with you, seek his treasure that is unfailing, that is enduring, where no moth comes to eat and no worm destroys."
To find enlightenment (the father's kingdom), seek that which is eternal, never changing (like a pearl). Get rid of that which is temporary, ever changing (which is not enduring, eaten by moths and worms).
94. Jesus [said], "One who seeks will find, and for [one who knocks] it will be opened."
The honest seeker will find the door to the truth (who seeks will find) and when he can also release the sense of doership of the ego and be humble in front of this door (knock), he will find enlightenment (it will be opened).
97. Jesus said, "The [Father's] kingdom is like a woman who was carrying a [jar] full of meal. While she was walking along [a] distant road, the handle of the jar broke and the meal spilled behind her [along] the road. She didn't know it; she hadn't noticed a problem. When she reached her house, she put the jar down and discovered that it was empty."
When we feel in connection to enlightenment and the self (the kingdom, the meal) it may happen that when we are involved in the world of names and forms (walk along a distant road), we lose this connection because our mind is not longer centered inside (the handle of the jar broke) and slowly the connection is lost (the meal spilled) without us noticing (she didn't know it, didn't notice a problem). But when at some point we pause (reached her house) and try to relax our mind (put the jar down) we are surprised to find this connection gone (it was empty). Remain focused, stay connected.
109. Jesus said, "The (Father's) kingdom is like a person who had a treasure hidden in his field but did not know it. And [when] he died he left it to his [son]. The son [did] not know about it either. He took over the field and sold it. The buyer went plowing, [discovered] the treasure, and began to lend money at interest to whomever he wished."
We all have the treasure of self-knowledge inside (hidden in his field), but most remain unaware of it (did not know it). This treasure is found only by those who seek (plow). When they find it, they can share it (lend money) with anyone (whomever he wished) and get it back with interest (at interest).